Painful Love


I’m looking at you
And am not sure if I’m looking
At a stranger
Or a fraudster
He has the same features
Of a man I trust- trusted
A man I love- love
But it’s blurry
You are blurry
My vision is blurring
Please put an end to this
With words of reason!
Tell me something logical
Against incriminating evidence!
Tell me there’s an explanation…
That you didn’t cheat on me!
That there are not two women
Do you belong to me  at all?!

Tears can’t flow
I’m just dazed
Yet my mind is working
Already planning how to
Gather back the broken pieces
Of my life….

I know my spirit is dying
Within me
But for the sake of loved ones
I must live
I must even marry….
A man again….
There is no other creature
But there will definitely not be
Love again

Are you still on your knees?
Is not all this a movie?
Will you not tell me
Something essential?!
To break this dizziness
I feel like a zombie

Don’t touch me!
Don’t hug me!
Don’t you dare kiss me!
Just speak!

I love you!
I already know that I can’t
Stop loving you
Love cannot cease at a
Drop of a hat!
Ice cannot cut it into two
It’s too deep…too dense
Decades of sedimentation

But I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
I wanna breathe in your
Scent one more time….
I love you stranger
Even if you’re a fraudster!
And if given the chance
I won’t turn back the hands
Of time
Your love changed my life
Your love mentored my years
Is it really over?
Are you still not speaking sense?
                                 Natasha- City

You watch the drama in telenovelas and you fall in love with it……and you wish your relationship could be as dramatic and passionate.

But then if really….you have ever experienced an ounce of the drama displayed in them- you will know never to wish for a thing like that again!

Thinking your life partner has cheated on you is one of them! And I don’t mean suspicions- I mean seeing hard evidence! With no warning signs to prepare you for this revelation!

You won’t cry like you see in the movies. It will be like your wind- pipe has been cut off… will be like your world has ended……

And like a movie you will rewind your life with him/her……..and you will look out for behaviors you should have been suspicious of. And you will stare at him or her over and over again……………………and wonder…was I kissing or making love to a fraudster all this while? And given the chance will I write my life differently. And the answer you find is what will show how much you loved him/her.



3 thoughts on “STRANGER 

  1. I don’t want to sanitise writing. I think we need to have writing on all topics and from all viewpoints. But, like you, I’m untmbforcaole with this being presented as romantic, as erotic, when we have a culture that already demeans women.


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