Our Infinity

 

In this little space of time……I’ve loved you …
And been loved by you
There are infinite numbers b/n zero and one
There is .1, .12, .13etc
Of coz there is a bigger collection of nos b/n zero and two
or b/n zero and a million

The days we spent……
In each second my heart soared by you
Each minute I spent holding your hand
Fighting with you
Loving you
Arguing over books and lunch
Ernest my love
I cannot tell you how thankful I am
For our little infinity
You gave me forever
In a short space of time
And for that I am eternally grateful
I love you so much

I know unlike the “Fault in our stars”
None of us saw death
And you did not want this
But for me
You were a delight I was not supposed to enjoy
A delicacy that wasn’t mine to have

That I had you
For the short time…
…That you gave me forever and
Showed me a love so beautiful,
Stubborn..and awesome
Is the biggest miracle these
Eyes of mine
This heart of mine ever saw
Ever felt
And might never feel..and see again

I know
You’re in another’s arms right now
And I too
But our infinity will
Forever by eulogized
In my heart
And poems
And novel….
And I will move on in life
With a bold smile
Knowing I was loved by you.

So deeply
And so intense
And that’s more than most
People get
I love you
I love you….God I’m
So lucky to have loved you
Love hurts…
I know
Hazel Grace knows…

You don’t get to choose if you get
Hurt in this world but you do
Have a say in who hurts you
I like my choice
I chose you…..
For the brief infinity of my life

Some infinities are simply bigger than others…..
So I thank God for my infinity
With you
04/12/2014
Tasha

– The Fault in our Stars

A friendship dead…before birth

 

Have you ever kept
Emotions
Blocked…
Refusing to acknowledge
Them
…………………
If your fingers dare to attempt
Poetry
Then will you recognize
that….
….Dull pain
….And ache

For before the fingers can write
Your heart
It needs to accept
That
You hurt
………………….
That
He bruised your ego
Only then can you
Make art of the pain
And shame and
Bitterness you feel.

Have you ever appeared
Shallow
To someone
Although you’re
Deep
The words just came out all
Wrong and
Childish and you don’t know how
To take it back
Without
Tripping and falling and
Been more childish

And when he
Fully acknowledges
That you are
But a shallow woman
In his eyes
Then you have no more
Strength
Or motivation
To show him the real you
And you just wanna walk away

But then that would
Be
One human on this
Continent you have succeeded
In creating a shallow impression
Of yourself to
And he could spread it
Coz the world is actually
A village
You could marry his bro!

But who are you kidding
What really hurts is that
You like him
And knowing he thinks
You are shallow
Having no width nor depth
Pierces
Your very soul
20/12/2014
Tasha